i am Ashraf

Rapunzel hair

2009-02-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

After I called her, she sounded dull. The thought of having an enjoyable conversation with her today was unexpectedly diminished instantly. She was at her computer chatting with her friends while I was..

I was with Jin Hao and Jia Jun when I called. At that point after hearing her slow and one-word responses, I gave up. Soon enough I gave an excuse and hung up. I couldn't be bothered to think why she was pathetically deliberating her reponses. Was it because.. I'm too tired to ponder. The six minute and twenty-eight seconds conversation was stricked as a waste of my time.

Here I am with two of my friends under the void deck chatting away as if we've not met for centuries. I am certainly glad to know that there are people that I can talk to.

Our conversation topics were thrilling, exciting, interesting, banal and maybe er.. educational? How often do you discuss on increasing the productivity rate and efficiency of your two (or according to some three) fingers? How often do be get thrilled to hear about a girl’s head chopped off and blood splattering all over because of her lovely Rapunzel hair which got stuck in one of the themepark rides?

I feel blessed. Even though I do not have as many similar interests with them, we are still able to socialise after our secondary school education ended years ago.

Emokid Yuanhao

2009-02-14T07:24:00.014+08:00

Well, I'm back at this blog again.. my previous blog hosted at Kamilul.com has been down recently since my aunt passed away. I signed up the plan under her credit card and it has since been terminated. I'll just continue blogging with this one again till I choose to move over there in months to come where it's more flexible for me.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

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I'm fine, I'm the Ashraf as you have always seen. Today's feature will be about Sir Yuanhao. He is my classmate in LOM since year 2. Semester 2.1 was quite empty for me.. I guess. Ever since Yi Liang got attached, the clique seperated and we rarely ever have an outing anymore as everyone is busy with their ever-tight schedule.

I don't really know Yuanhao well in semester 2.1. He was always with his own clique, i.e. with Donovan and Hafiz. We did talk for a few times but it not that enriching. I only know that he's an amazing amiable guy and I hope one day I will get to know him more.

I am not able to recall when we started talking more and more with to each other. I guess it most likely began when I wanted to leave my post as Secretary to the Interest Group. I remembered it was at LOM Centre 2 when Yuanhao sided with me when I was talking about quitting to Lee Lin.

I was feeling down at that period of time. The whole IG issue was in a mess. People were pissed off with me and I was pissed off with them. I was in a horrendous situation. I didn't know what to do. However, it was him who got me laughing again.

Yuanhao is an optimistic person. He cracks lame jokes. He makes a lame comment out of nothing. He manipulates the conversation and change the entire direction to being positive. His fucking hilarious self makes him even a more interesting person. He made a vr-zone, hardwarezone and eBay account with the name "Ashruf_LOM". He spelled it as ashrUf, not ashrAf. I don't know whether he really did now know to spell my name, but whatever it is, I can't even believe even a simple thing like that will make me laugh.. haha ^^

He lives nearby at Telok Kurau, where I'm at Ubi. Initially I always took bus 8 for my convenience. Though nowadays, I take 15.

As you know, Ashraf the Worried Soul always talks about results. "GPA dropping", "If I don't get A.. I'll kill myself!" and so on. He moderates my conversations by facilitating me to look at the other side of life. "It's only 10%", "You still have main exams", "At least it is better than me". A lot of things he said. His words are simple yet encouraging. Encouraging enough for me to put aside all my worries and look on the brighter side of life.

Slowly.. our conversation topics got quite diversed. We talked about other issues affecting us. Girls, families, even politics per say. And yes, there are times when I will talk about something shockingly boring to him. He'll listen patiently.

He's literally like an Angel from Heaven. (okay.. maybe not really!)

Though, with all the good stuff going, I get disappointed at times. I was most disappointed last week when I needed help in giving out flyers for the transport petition. He was not willing to help I guess. I felt quite sad.. wondering where my friends were when I needed their moral support. Thankful enough, I had Eden, Jonathan and the other Chinese girls to help out. Well it was not Yuanhao alone who didn't want to. Another close friend of mine also said no. Shirley. Hafiz said no. Melody said no, I suppose since there was no response. I don't even want to ask Yi Liang for I foresee a 'no' from him too.

Yeah.. not just disappointed with him alone, the others as well. I've learnt from this petition campaign that not many people are willing to help out for this cause due to the nature of the campaign itself. It requires a bit of thick-skinnedness. I believe that in the future, when I need help from my friends, they will be there for me.

On the contrary, Yuanhao is a scarry guy. He's too nice. Too nice is just scarry man! Who knows he's like a murderer or a sex maniac! Don't be too nice la, bro.

Being around him and his unique clique has enable me to change a bit of myself. I'm slightly more optimistic nowadays (I mean seriously). I can't really explain how I've changed, but I know I have. Hahaha.

On a final note, I wish Yuanhao all the best. Hope he gets a girlfriend soon XD

P.S. Whoops, that post above just sounded gay man! I guess it'a alright la. I just treat it as friend-friend kind-of-thing? No worries everyone, I love girls. Oh you bet I do! ; D

Disappointment

2008-11-02T00:05:00.001+08:00

In a few days time, the national petition will commence.

The group’s target is to get 100,000 signatures.

Is it possible? I believe that it is possible, but it will take time – though I feel that we can only get 50,000.

This will be a once in a lifetime experience, I don’t think this will ever happen again in my life. I also treat it somehow as my personal project. I want to see how far I can go for this cause.

I know it’s going to be tough. It will be very tough. Imagine, your own friends refuse to help you… I know some of them are busy and stuff, but you can’t even sacrifice some of your time? Just 20 minutes a day to collect some signatures is not that difficult, you know.

And I say this time and time again, I’m very disappointed to see that those I invested so much time helping is not willing to help me out this time round. I guess my investment gone bonkers with no returns, like those who invested in Lehman Brothers. Next time I shall critically evaluate whether I should invest my time in certain people.

I think next time I won’t say “I don’t expect anything in return”. Why am I always by myself… it’s very sickening… very. Why can’t people help me when I need the help? Am I suppose to live in this world alone, and just me alone by myself.

Do you know how lonely I feel? Do you know how sucky it is to be talking to yourself because everyone’s so busy handling their own problems? Some kind of loser I am. I may seem okay but there are a lot of things bothering me.

Ahh.

I won’t let these issues affect me; I must not let them affect my life. People say strength is from your mind “It’s all in the mind”. I beg to differ. I guess to me, strength is not from your fists, it’s not from your mind but… strength comes from your heart. If you believe in what you are doing, put your heart into it and it’ll be alright.

Be strong Ashraf. Though you feel so hurt now, you will be alright. I just feel sad for you Ashraf because you keep getting hurt. Your heart is not only broken into a million pieces, you’re also stepping on it. Crushing it, smacking it. Okay, whatever.

I just don’t feel like typing anymore.

Petition: High Bus Fares for Polytechnic students

2008-10-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

Petition: High Bus Fares for Polytechnic students

There is a petition started by a Polytechnic student, asking the Bus Companies to revise the fares for Poly students. Currently the Poly students are paying much higher. This is because the Polytechnic is classified under Tertiary Education, but it is not for the Junior Colleges (JCs) and Institute of Technical Education (ITE).

As a Poly student myself, I feel that it is unfair that SBS Transit and SMRT are charging the Poly students almost double for the bus and train concessions when compared to those in the JCs and ITE.

If you feel that it is unfair and biased that the Bus Companies are charging us higher, please sign this petition: http://www.petitiononline.com/polybus/

Please spread the Online Petition URL to others studying in the Polytechnics as well, spread it to your individual Interest Groups (IGs), classmates, and so on.

Best regards

Kamilul Ashraf
Temasek Business School

60 Things Most Girls Don't Know About Guys

2008-10-22T22:06:00.003+08:00

Found this on the net, found it quite interesting ; D

-- Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE)

--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. Yes, very true.. for me, that is. But for now, there's no one in mind uh. Eh wait, do I even flirt in the first place? ; P

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes. Er, it depends ah. I'm used to talking to girls on the phone, so it's not that bad.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. Very, very, very true! Even in movies, I think there was one I was watching with.. Rick&JH I think, it was Money No Enough 2. There was this nurse, her smile was like so awesome. And her scene was like only a few seconds, sad manz

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. Really meh? Sometimes I just don't want her to know.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are
method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily. Lalala..

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend. Happened to one of my guy friend ah.. someone ah.. Not really 'seek help' la, but he was like trying to get close to her through her best friend. And it turned out otherwise.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. Yes, we know what to do.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Hahaha, yes. Well you see, either I tease or I insult (rarely), and most girls (I don't know) can't see through. Teasing maybe yes, but not insult - I just want their attention. They just think I'm lame or have nothing better to say, or.. my mouth's just bitter (when I insult). Perhaps one day they'll miss me when I stop insulting.. aww.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot. Yep, yep.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. I think I think too much in general, whatever is it.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. I'm always faking my expressions anyway. I'm a fake.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Let me see, I've said that I'm crazy about a girl.. I think once ah. Uh huh.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." Woo.. depends la. Actually, that can be applied to me. I don't wish to trouble people with my stuff, so I'll just say "I'm okay" or "Nothing".

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you. Maybe, maybe not. More of maybe =x

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Yep, yep. I may seem okay, but I have a million problems ahead of me!

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er.. don't know. Hahaha. I haven't talked about girls (okay maybe a little) for quite some time, for now.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us. Yes, and if you think guys are assholes, don't you dare call me and blabber about how much you hate all the guys in the world because - I am a guy too

--We don't like girls who are too skinny. Yep, yep.

--We love it when girls talk about there boobs. Hehe, oh c'mon...

--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times. Eh.. think so. This happened to me like a few times alr.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. Don't know, don't have a girlfriend.

Cable TV

2008-10-19T20:39:00.002+08:00

I will so love my life. My mum just subscribed to StarHub Cable TV.

Love Marriage, a drama that I've been following, is on KBS World at 3 am on this Wednesday (I have no school on every Wed). Plus, it has English subs too! : DD

On top of that, there's those news channels as well! BBC/Bloomberg/CNN.. yeah man, so gonna be updated with the news. Gonna catch live updates on the elections.

Then there's NatGeo and Discovery Channels, not forgetting Star World where I get to watch Heroes, and Hallmark Channel where I get to watch The Nanny.

Ahh.. more reasons to spend more quality time at home - with the TV XDD

Out with my bros

2008-10-12T20:56:00.003+08:00

Went out with Rick in the afternoon today.. can't believe I entered that shop with him. I never imagined entering that kinda shop before, but I guess with him around, there was no fear of losing face so I entered anyway. Like how Liverpool says it, you'll never walk alone. Hahaha. an interesting first uh!

Had lunch with him, after which Jinhao joined us! XD

Yikai and Jh were looking for their prom suits while I was window-shopping (not really, since I got myself a Club Marc not-formal not-informal jacket :P)

Rick got himself a gift for his sister, aww.. sweet ^^

It sucks that I have to go home early.. I've got my Advanced Diploma project to complete.

Anyhow, enjoyed myself today. Love the company of my two bros XD

Kissing You by So-Nyo-Si-Dae

2008-10-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

The couple looks sweet ^_^ uh the girls are pretty as well

[MV] Kissing You - So Nyuh Shi Dae

Gone.. gone!

2008-10-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

Ahh, I can't do anything about it. Rick and Jinhao will be gone in a few months time. The Singapore government is taking them away from me.. oh man. I'm gonna be super SUPER super lonely.

How am I gonna cope with this? Geez. My fault for not going to the JCs.

Walkman anyone?

2008-10-07T19:59:00.005+08:00

It's a commercial turned music video. I would so buy a Walkman to an Apple because I love this ad! Hahaha ^__^

Behind the scenes of Jerry Yan advertising for Sony Walkman. Nice song ; D

Quoted from the YouTube page, "I love their chemistry.(see 0:20-0:50,1:25-1:36,1:43-1:50,2:09-2:13)"

Actual video is here.. but sound quality not so good uh. But you should watch to understand the whole "music video". It's real sweet (:

Sony Walkman -

Update: K/Tdramas

2008-10-02T23:40:00.011+08:00

Currently watching all listed below. Haha, I think I should write reviews for the dramas I have watched.. but no time la. I've been watching more Korean than Taiwan for the time being, don't know why though.

Watch Wish To See You Again though, I recommend! 5 stars :P

Wish To See You Again by CTS

Yet again, it's the JVKV team (formerly known as F4). While I'm watching CTV/GTV's Hot Shot starring Jerry Yan, the other three stars Vanness Wu, Ken Chua and Vic Zhou are featured in CTS's Wish To See You Again - that also explains why JVKV songs were in their OST uh

Love this show ; D

Love & Marriage by KBS2

Starring Kim Ji Hoon (supporting main actor in Great Inheritance - watched it alr) and Park Ki Woong (extended cast in When It's at Night - still watching)

Bad Couple by SBS

Starring Ryu Soo Young (main actor in Lawyers of Korea - watched it alr). I'm supportive of his acting because he's a Virgo, lol. Most actors/actresses are mostly Taurus, Capricorn (both Earth elements: Virgo's an Earth too, but very rare to find), Aries, Libra, Aquarius (all Air elements), and a couple of attractive Leo's.

When It's At Night by MBC

Starring Lee Dong Gun (main actor in Sweet 18 - watched it alr) and Kim Sun Ah (main actress in My Name is Kim Sam-Soon - watched it alr)

Corner with Love by CTV/ ETTV

Starring Alan Luo (main actor in Hot Shot - still watching) and Barbie Xu (main actress in Mars, Meteor Garden - both watched alr, ex-girlfriend of JVKV's Vic Zhou)

jy!

2008-10-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

Good luck to those taking their 'A' levels soon, especially my dearest Rick, my kak Roszana and my bro Jin Hao!

I know you guys can do it, score really well yeah!

Raudhah, Sonam and some others are doing quite well in the Poly, so let's all go university together! Fheeweet ^^

All the best to them, let's all pray they will score with flying colours! [:

jyjy!

Formula One

2008-09-26T01:11:00.006+08:00

Yes, the Formula One Inaugural Night Race is here! ; DD

Someone gave me a free F1 ticket. I'll be seated at the Marina Grandstand on Sunday for the Singapore Grand Prix.

I just have one ticket though.. I'll just go anyway, don't wanna waste that ticket. Being alone is alrd a norm uh.. ; DD

Permits

2008-09-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today I was learning how to do permits and stuff. LEARNING is already a killer, don't even mention the practicality of me doing any. It's tough manz DD:

Well, everything was easy.. except the part when you need to enter the Harmonised Code (I think that it what it means, or so I thought), or HS code.

Everything you import or export have a HS code. It's like classification numbers so that the customs know what you're bringing in/ out. Say.. if you are importing a guitar, it will classified under HS code 92029000. I wish I can memorise those numbers uh, then I'll be the pro ; DD

The codes can be found here - SIN Customs: Alphabetical Index to Singapore Trade Classification, Customs and Excise Duties (click here), or if you just feel like searching, you can go to TradeXchange, a SinGov website (click here).

It's hell I tell you. A book itself can be under so many classifications, imagine some tiny electronic part. If it's one item, then maybe I can tolerate. If they are 20 food items, it will just make you suffocate - esp now when SIN Customs are tight on food with the AVA on standby to ensure the consumable goods in SIN are safe.

Oh well, time to learn more Ashraf. There's still tomorrow (:

Freight Ops

2008-09-24T18:27:00.007+08:00

Today, I'm in Freight Operations. I'll be here for one week.

New people I meet in this department. I think Kok Yong, or some call him Bryan, is the coolest guy there. He's my TP senior by 10 years from Engineering. I think my one week there, though others can teach me more on freight ops, he'll guide me stuff that I think will be beneficial throughout my life ^^

Aha.. at last I got to use the terms I learnt back in school.

Terms like EXW (Ex Works, or we know it as Ex Factory), CIF (Cost Insured Freight), FOB (Freight On Board).. and I forgot the last one - but I doubt we use that anyway because usually we pick up shipments from shipper's address to hub (rarely that shipper delivers).

The more responsibility we hold, the more profits we get. I think like CIF only origin gains but the destination company does not earn, something like that.

Cool stuff yeah! Tomorrow gonna learn how to apply for permits for import/export goods : DD

How's your blog going?

2008-09-23T19:55:00.008+08:00

"How's your blog going?"

This might pose to be normal question to some of you bloggers, but little did I know this might be the end of my life - okay fine was just exaggerating =x

It was not my friend who asked it, neither it did came from my penpals. Nope - not my mum (duh, obviously). Not Rick, not Jessie.. um, then who can it be?

It came from the Operations/Hub Manager of my intern company, Maher Tarazi.

I soon figured out once someone does mention about the company on the World Wide Web, they will know it. I think I heard it before in the papers once. And now I am to face with this. Oh well, so I here I come..

Aramex, Aramex Aramex! (and now my visitor rate will increase)

I didn't notice this at Feedburner when I published my post (see here) on my blog, where i did mention about my first week at the company - here I am again to post on my second week. I thought it might have been some random visitors, but take a closer look. Three are from UAE and one from my head office in Jordan.

Yes, yes.. I am so screwed! Totally.. but before I even go there, I better do some 'recovery' - I got to know about term recently.

A picture speaks a thousand words, people say. We have all heard this saying, more than once, I would imagine. But consider for a moment how very true this statement really is. In the picture you see three very beautiful ladies: Fauziah, Merlita and Jennifer from Customer Service and two men, wait.. there are not just any men: On the left we have as mentioned Maher Tarazi and on the right CEO of Asia Othman Aljeda. (Credits to Jennifer for the photo)

I would like to work in a company where top level management can comfortably sit down with the front line staff and able to connect with them. I have seen bosses who think the world bows to them. I have seen ones that think without them, there wouldn't be me (if you get what I mean). I don't see that here, well for the Singapore branch that is.

I can imply that from the picture, Aramex "have long believed that (their) people are among the greatest strengths of the company" (Aramex, 2006. Sustainability Report. Aramex Culture pg 44). It can also say that the company sees everyone as an asset. Everyone's important, not just those up making decisions. Without the middle level and front line management, the company wouldn't exist.

Anyway,

I believe that though Asia & Indian sub continent only brings back 6.5 per cent of the total revenue, I believe we, esp the ones at Singapore are able to grow.. bloom and flourish. But we have to make changes at the right time, at the right place.

I believe there's more the company can do to grow. It's more than just expanding through acquisitions, it's more than globalising through franchising.. but: I am not intelligent enough to know what's best. I don't know the company well enough to make changes. I think the top level management knows best (but maybe the tiny weeny Customer Service have ideas too, so hear everyone yeah?)

The company seeks to become the 5th global logistics and express transportation service provider by the year 2010, and I believe this can be achieved with the right attitude all set!

OKAY, I'm done sucking up. It sounds a bit like a report - with the referencing and stuff. Ashraf.. you're so fake man. Haha. I really meant what I said above la : DD

I'm got loads more to write.. but I'm just too tired. Tomorrow will be my last day at Customer Service, and I'll be with Freight soon (:

Preparing for Report

2008-09-19T20:56:00.008+08:00

Now I have too much to do.

I'm preparing for my report on my internship, to be presented to the Manager of all the depts towards the end of my stay there. Uhh.. damn, it's not easy. I'm like doing it alone.. anyway -

If I'm lucky enough, the CEO for Asia will be there. But that's either good or bad, because if I screw it up big time, then it's the end. If I excel, then it's my stepping stone. Maybe Mr. Lim will be there too.. see how uh, I'll inform him. He'll be my unofficial so-called mentor for my time at Aramex (maybe because he's my Care Person lol).

Gah.. reading up their annual reports, searching YouTube videos on the company and it's Founder and Chief Executive Officer, Fady Ghandour - I need to know the company's direction, his direction. What does he wants, what he looks forward to and stuff.

In one of the YouTube videos, he was talking about Entrepreneurship. He was saying he was not the top of the class, not the smartest of all, and it does not take all of that to succeed.

Yep, interesting stuff. I hope I'll do a good one : DD

Handsome blind guy

2008-09-19T20:56:00.005+08:00

Woots.. it's still the holidays.. err for the polytechnics! (sorry jc-ians)

For those girls out there who have been visiting my blog (I don't know why you people even drop by this blog when I don't update it often, plus it's boring stuff), I've got a Korean drama episode where it featured one outstandingly handsome guy. He got blind in an accident and his best friend stole all of his paintings.

Go watch it when you have time, yeah? (:

Auction House: Episode 10: Part 1, 2, 3, 4

For more, please visit Mysoju : DD

A Recondite Point

2008-09-18T16:56:00.007+08:00

POST REMOVED

Hmm. If you want to know about it, haha. Come sms me : DD

I decided to remove the post after sorting legal advice from Jinhao & Rick, because.. because even a person like Jinhao can't get the joke. LOL ; D

P.S. To those slow people there, they had 'ON' in their names - Now laugh

Internship

2008-09-16T05:53:00.008+08:00

I've been at Aramex (click here) for my internship. I'm sure you've heard of UPS of America.. or the Singapore Post of Singapore. Aramex's sorta like the one for Middle East. We're the experts there.

Anyway, back to my post: Basically, I get paid to learn and write reports.. oh dammit. Quite cool huh. The logistics industry will never be boring - it is always changing everyday: you'll never know what's going to happen next as there are many factors that will change the environment - regardless of macro or micro.

But at certain points of the day I'll get super bored to death because I'm just learning and observing - my exams just ended, you want me to study somemore?! Though it's still considered more hands on compared to normal textbook education, there's always a limit for my case as I'm just some understudy thus they're not able to take risks by allowing me to handle their big accounts and stuff - so most of the time, I'm just starring and looking at them do work.

At times, I'll daze in the blank space wondering what my other friends are doing. Rick and Jinhao are constantly mugging - their A's for coming soon. Now I don't even have much time to spend with them, not like before. Gah, I guess it's best that I don't disturb them uh.. don't be some troublemaker. Let them have their peace.

Today will be my first week at the company. I have three more weeks to go. jy Ashraf! (:

Hot Shot - Alan Luo

2008-09-15T02:22:00.002+08:00

LOL, I just posted this because I want you guys to hear the theme song ^^

Oh yes, if you have time, do watch the whole thing too, ya? (:

Tunnel - Freya Lin

2008-09-15T02:06:00.001+08:00

I love listening to this song.. don't really know what it means, but I sorta feel it, yep

隧道 - 林凡

時間一分一秒心情像白雲自在的飄
獨自坐在公園一角任憑風衝進懷抱
十二點的鐘聲傳遍了城市每條街道
期待擁抱又害怕會被你知道

到底是要遠遠看你還是靠近一點更好
我不確定你是不是我一直要找的主角
我用騙人的祈禱騙自己我現在很好
和你在一起的每分每秒就像走過彩虹隧道

時間一分一秒同一座城市相互尋找
獨自坐在公園一角看著雨後的青草
十二點的鐘聲傳遍了城市每條街道
有誰知道我現在矛盾的心跳

到底是要遠遠看你還是靠近一點更好
我不確定你是不是我一直要找的主角
我用騙人的祈禱騙自己我已經看到
忐忑不安的背後是微笑是我們的彩虹隧道

幻想不停圍繞它很美也很煎熬
我卻無法選擇要或不要

到底是要遠遠看你還是靠近一點更好
我不確定你是不是我夢中見過的主角
我用騙人的祈禱騙自己你沒有看到
陽光底下我的心像羽毛跟你飛過彩虹隧道

Polytechnic Examination Results

2008-09-12T22:33:00.010+08:00

I've lost it all. I doubt I will be in the Director's Honors List (DHL) this time round.

DHL base on the Academic's Year GPA, not the cumulative - which makes it fair. This Academic Year 08/09, for April Semester I've screwed up.

I got 3A's and 2B+.

I've asked around. Clarence got 5 Distinctions, Kenny got 4 Distinctions and 1B, Kai Lee got 5A's - all very good results.

Firstly, I don't even have one fucking distinction.

Secondly, I didn't get all A's.

Thirdly, I suck: I didn't manage my risk well enough, i.e. bad risk management. I skipped one of my lessons for a particular subject, and I believe that's the cause for my B+. My A grade missed by by 1 or 2 per cent.

The other B+ is basically I screwed up my Mid-semester test, down with a C+. So from C+ to a B+ is somehow an improvement, but not a miracle because I didn't get an A.

My GPA is up from 3.73 to 3.75, an increment of 0.02.

I was talking about my results to my mother. And I was talking about other people. I think I'm just plain jealous uh - I know some people who have scored very well, but downright they are fucking selfish - don't bother to help others, pretend don't-know but just don't want to share their knowledge, just want you to help them when they are in need but not otherwise. I hate this group of people - okay cannot hate, but dislike.

My mum said "that's the world out there".

I guess it's true. I was wondering whether it's worth it for me to change to A Selfish Ashraf, which, however doesn't guarantee, leads to excellent results. Should I stop helping others, and go all out to help myself in getting the top position? Should I be an outcast and live in my own world? Should I just act and give excuses when people come for help?

I believe it's wrong. I shouldn't be like that. Just trust yourself Ashraf, and trust God.

Ashraf should just the trust God almighty and He will know what to do with them. It's okay Ashraf, you will benefit at the end of the day - my way of consoling myself. Oh well ^^

Hot Shot

2008-09-09T21:11:00.001+08:00

Hot Shot

I'm gonna watch Hot Shot episode 5 now. Come everyone, watch it too~!

Part 1 / Part 2

My birthday

2008-09-09T20:52:00.004+08:00

It's my birthday tomorrow. Sadly, I'm not in the mood to celebrate it:-

My work starts tomorrow. I'll be meeting new people. I don't really like that.. and, new things to do. Yes, I must begin with a positive attitude - however it's not that easy: I still feel insecure in being able to do a good job for a month, accepting the fact that I know nothing about working in a global transportation and logistics services company.

My results will be out tomorrow too. My Public Speaking module is confirmed: a B+. I'm still not too sure about other subjects. As I said, either 4A, 2B+ & 2A or 4B+. I have a strong feeling that it will be 2B+ & 2A - which will land up in a decrease in my cumulative GPA, a drop from 3.73 t0 3.72. Wish me luck everyone.

It's the day I realised I'm some nobody. I still remember one of the most excruciating days of my life so far. There are three of such days: September 10 2003, February 28 2006 and August 13 2007.

LOM Day

2008-09-09T20:25:00.005+08:00

I arrived late for LOM Day as I had some Alumni stuff to do back in my secondary school. I had it all planned: I'm gonna use my I'm fasting I can't play excuse to avoid myself from getting involved in the supposedly lame games organised by the Experiential Learning Facilitators, or also known as ELF.

It turned out otherwise.

As Group A was leaving for the ELF Centre near the Temasek Convention Centre, I saw my ge ge Yuanhao and my other classmates. Didn't want to pang seh them, so I tagged along uh. I was still in my I don't want to play mode, so I just kept my cool and tried to appear weak, something I realised I'm not good at since my mouth kept talking and talking.

Can't help it uh; the guys in my class were joking around and stuff. It was funny la. We were saying.. "(Someone) kept saying he cumming.. he cumming.. woah, so long to cum ah?!" One of my classmates took a really long time to come and join us la, lol. It's also an internal joke, you will only understand if you know what kind of person he is. He's nice la, it's just that we're making fun of him.

Anyway, all those groups didn't really matter as the ELFs seperated everyone their own way. I ended up in a group where it was mostly T05/T03? I think so uh. Yi Liang and I were the only T01's (I think he's in the group because his girlfriend is in it too). There was one senior who joined us. His name is Pierre. Cool huh, he's my T01 senior! I befriended him and stuff, nice guy... amiable.

We had a lot of bonding games, haha. Like Shiwei said it, "woo, bondage!". It was exciting, there were not too many games. Rule of thumb, three games in total. Everyone was laughing, we were having the time of life there : P

Toward the end of the session, I asked Shiwei which horoscope he belongs to. Just a random question. He said he either belonged to Gemini or Cancer cos' he was born on the last day of that sign, or smth like that. And you know what.. after that, he said "Ohh, I hate Virgo's too". Hmm, wonder he knows that I'm one. We still did continue our conversation after that.. oh well.

Practically no one wanted to go for the BBQ organised by Welfare Committee which will be held after the session at ELF. I arrived there quite late, say 8.30? Not many people were there, but I quite enjoyed myself. I spent most of my time talking to Lee Lin, the senior secretary in our interest group (IG). I think we chatted for like 1 hr 45 minutes?

She's really sweet uh, too sweet till she sweet talked me back into my secretary role in the IG (I had left the post in the month of August). In the end, I told her that I'm gonna do secretary work only for Welfare, or the most - Events. For her sake only, don't want to make her life difficult.

Unexpectedly enjoyed my day yesterday, gah.. wished it lasted longer ^^

Running shoes

2008-09-09T20:17:00.004+08:00

I just bought a pair running shoes: Adidas Adizero RC. Never once had a pair from Adidas for running, but I guess it's a good try. The main reason why I bought it was because it was at 50% off from Royal Sporting House - quite a good deal uh (:

I feel like running now.. woots! Come Jinhao, lets run 10K! ; D

Call back for Sony TZ laptops

2008-09-06T16:52:00.003+08:00

Notice to Sony VAIO VGN-TZ Customers (Read here)
04-09-2008

Dear Valued Sony Customer,

Sony has recently discovered that limited number of VAIO "TZ series" notebook computers sold between May 2007 and Aug 2008 may, in rare cases, generate heat around the DC jack inlet and frame of LCD screen, which creates the potential of deformation of the plastic casing.

As part of our ongoing commitment to customer satisfaction and safety, Sony is offering a free inspection and repair service to owners of applicable models. For customers with the applicable models, we request you to please contact your nearest Sony Service Centre @ 6473 6500 for the inspection arrangement.

* * *

Gah, this means I won't be having my laptop with me for say.. 1 week? :(

Bored

2008-09-04T10:15:00.002+08:00

I've been up since 5 in the morning. Couldn't sleep.. also, nothing better to do.

There's no new dramas to watch too :(

I'm waiting for an update on mysoju for the new drama, I Want To Become A Hard Persimmon, but it's taking forever uh.

I Want To Become A Hard Persimmon

So ended up I started watching Meteor Garden I, a drama I believe most drama addicts have already finished watching.

Meteor Garden I

I was wow-ed, haha. F4 guys manz, woots. Hot Shot's Jerry Yan, Sweet Relationship's Vic Zhou, Why Why Love's Rainie Yang. But I soon got bored of the story line. Halfway through the show, I think I know what's gonna happen alr. Ahh, this is what happens when you watch too much of the same old show. Love is not all that complicated at all, it's actually very simple.

I think I'm gonna watch Corner with Love now. It starrs Barbie Xu (main actress for Meteor Garden I) and Hot Shot's Alan Luo (:

Examination Results

2008-09-02T05:47:00.001+08:00

I have a feeling my GPA will drop for this semester. I guess I'm to be blamed as I was quite slack throughout the end of this semester.

For my diploma subjects, either 4B+, 2B+ and 2A or, unlikely 4A's.

Let's see how it goes. Just praying hard it won't drop D:

IT Show

2008-09-02T05:45:00.000+08:00

The IT Show went well. I only worked on Saturday and Sunday. For both days, I sold a total of 14 Compaq computers.

I'm especially happy on the last day of the show, where my sales accumulated to 16.67% of the sales for the day. There were 13 sales rep, of which I sold 10pcs of the total 60.

I'm glad that Rick was there to sell computers with me. Rick had the highest sales of 18 computers throughout his 4 days there.

I wished Jinhao was there.. then the atmosphere would be much better uh!

Oh well, it's over now. Time to do something else (:

LSCM & Cheena Trip

2008-08-26T20:27:00.002+08:00

Heeya ^^

Today's paper was okay, though I did regret a little for not spending extra time reading up about the Radio Frequency Identification (RFID). I'll just leave to God, on whether I'll get A or B+ (:

Likai called me today, woo

We were discussing about me going to China with him and Ivy (supposedly my mama :D). My real mum, when asked just now about me going to the cheena place, gave the green light.

YEAH MAN! XDD

If everything goes well, this will be my second time going overseas (as in far away, M'sia don't count luh) alone ^^

$400 for the airfare tickets back and fro to Shenzen and Singapore
$200 - 300 for shopping

I'm not sure on how much I will earn at both Aramex and Sheraton Towers. I hope I will earn enough. China.. here I come!

God bless me

2008-08-23T13:33:00.007+08:00

Before reading this post, read my blog post before this. Yeah?

I need about $150-250 to get myself a new printer. It's all written below. I walked out of my house in disappointment wondering when will I get that money. How is it ever possible. Stealing is wrong. Gambling is wrong.. all against my religion. I'm not that desperate anyway.

So I went to the letterbox to take my weekly delivered The Economist. It's raining now btw, love this weather. Reminds me of...

Anyway, so as I was taking out all the letters.

I saw this letter. And guess what it said? I successfully received a bursary from Lembaga Biasiswa Kenangan Maulud (LBKM), or also known as Prophet Muhammad's Birthday Memorial Scholarship Fund Board.

I applied for it like a long time ago.. I can't believe I'm actually getting it! Oh man, thank you God. Thank you for allowing me to get this $600. Thank you for everything : DD

New on Shopping List

2008-08-23T12:42:00.011+08:00

Rarr.. Ashraf, go study la. Haha. I was looking at laser printers. Mine went bonkers.. but it's okay la. Time to get a new one. My other printer is more for my mum, so fine: This printer I will use only my money to purchase, since I'm the heavy duty user back at home.

I got an offer for a used printer for this model, HP LaserJet 2605dtn. It has all what I need. It has the letters d & n.

It has a duplexer (d), which enables me to print double sided automatically. Uber cool stuff, I love duplexers; saves a hell lot of my papers: Trying to be environmentally friendly la.. follow the ISO 14000 like TP ^^. And save my time too. Don't have to duplex manually. Yessahhh~! - end of the generation of spending time flipping papers.

It is networking-enabled (n). Since late 2003, all of the printers in my house are connected to the local area network, i.e. all of LAN ports integrated in the printers. If the printer doesn't have LAN, I will connect the USB to my Network Attached Server (NAS) which enables networked-printing XD. Anyway, my point is: Network enabled is a must.

It is a colour printer.. oh well, not that important since I rarely print many coloured stuff. Though my mum prints a lot of season greetings cards >>.<<. I am definitely taxed this Hari Raya.. I have to send like 200 cards to our relatives and her clients?! damn.. D:

It has extra stuff like the media-card-reader thing, which I obviously don't use.

Its retail price: $1,239 @ HP Singapore website. I am offered $400 for a second-hand one.. I don't mind though. I hope it can last me minimum two years... at least till I end my Polytechnic life, I'm quite happy.

If it can last two years, the depreciation for the printer is $200/yr, i.e. less than $1/day.

The downside is: The offer is only like for another two more weeks. Darn.. how am I going to earn $400 in such a short time? o.O

I'm going to earn $33 next week on Friday, working at ST again, just for that day. Expected to earn about $200 for next Saturday and Sunday. IT Show @ Suntec. That's only like a pathetic $233. Next week I hope my mum will give me another $50 for pocket money.. so that's $283. Oh man.

No, I didn't buy 4D.. my friend did.

Why can't I be like my friend who has a good brain. On 20/08/2008, he bought 4D. He didn't buy 2008, but he bought 2008 + 2008 = 4016. On Wednesday, the no. that got second prize was 6041. Because of the don't know system roll or something, he landed up getting that second prize luh.. so good. This is what I call street smart.

And being an idiot would be cool too. The starter prize for on 20/08/2008 was 2009. Imagine if you were that idiot who shade wrongly, instead of 2008 wrote 2009.. can get big money man.

So.. *ahem*, get ready guys for next year. 20/09/2009. Dammit, I just did an assignment on gambling. Gambling's bad man.. hahaha.

GAH. I'll think of something.

Television Dramas

2008-08-22T20:33:00.004+08:00

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Playing is the theme song of Gokusen. I just finished watching it. Haha. I finished watching three dramas in five days, during this crucial week, this study week =x

Gokusen

Why Why Love

So I'm Not Handsome

Still Watching

The following dramas are those of which are still airing, and I'm watching them week-by-week basis : D

Fated to Love You

Lawyers of Korea

Hot Shot

Management Science

2008-08-22T16:41:00.001+08:00

Uhh, I'm real tired of practising MS ah. Completed like two papers alr, I think that's enough. I'll continue more of MS on Sunday at MPlib (:

ANYWAY, who go and search 'yilang yunxia' then come to my blog ah? Hahaha. Whoever you are, what's your intention sia.. o.O

Rough Papers

2008-08-22T14:37:00.003+08:00

I'm lacking of rough papers.. and do you know who keeps all the rough papers in TP? o.O

Hehe.. it's the cleaners of the computer labs! Woots, you aunties rawkzz : DD

Oh man.. I made the auntie happy today, hahaha. I asked her for the rough papers she collected, and she was more than happy to give it to me. Lol, I think she's happy because I'm one of those who appreciate her efforts of collecting all the rough and recycled papers.

So one day.. if you decide to make someone happy, you can try making the computer lab auntie happy by thanking her for collecting those papers (and take the papers, of course) ; D

A hot girl

2008-08-21T16:38:00.007+08:00

Yeah man.. on my way home from TP, I met this girl - again. Wait, she's not the computer lab girl. She's my friend's friend. I think it's fated for us to meet again, because it's like the third or fourth time we meet again in the bus. Cut the crap la, coincidence to meet her again cos she takes 8 also.

She's hot. She's the sporty kind and.. I love her smile the most (:

We chatted and stuff. Hehe. Ashraf always know what to talk about ^^.

But oh man.. damn wasted. She's a Virgo D:

In my experience, all my Virgo crushes are just meant to be friends. So Ashraf - DON'T EVEN BOTHER. Dammit.. though I have to say Virgo girls are one of the most beautiful creatures on planet earth.

To end off this post, let me tell you: SHE GAVE ME HER EMAIL ADDRESS OMGFxD

Hahahaha. Ashraf relax. She's just someone you met on the street. If it's meant to be, I'll bump into her again ; D

LSCM

2008-08-20T12:37:00.003+08:00

Today will be quite tensed. I will be doing an intensive LSCM revision uh =x

Now having lunch @ Mensa.. haha, on the way, I met Mrs. Chan. She is my Communication Skills 1 tutor in year 1.

I was like EH MRS CHAN hello

Then she waved back at me.. I recall the conversation me, Melody, Yi Liang, Yun Xia and Cheryl had with her the other day on relationships.

After she walked quite a distance, I shouted EH CHER I STILL NO GIRLFRIEND

Then she shouted back TRY HARDER!

Lame man, but funny.. she rawks man. Love Mrs. Chan! (:

P.S. Chan Jin Hao, I'm referring to your gf, haha kidding ; D

Project Don

2008-08-18T19:30:00.004+08:00

Today was another great day for me. I was in school, supposedly to mug with Jessica and Charmaine... ended up with Yuanhao, Eden, Donovan and Hafiz. We went to see Mr. Lim because we had too many Purchasing questions, yea man...

Then after that, we all went to my favourite study room BS26-3-26. Aiya, suppose to study, but in the end chit chat =x

My friend Donovan wants to woo this particular girl, and asked all of us for advice. Haha. Ashraf is the Chairman of the Organising Committee for Project Don! XDD

Eden's the coach, Hafiz is the manager.. Yuanhao's the ball-picker (??!!) and yes.. Donovon's the player. Aiseh.. ; D

It was quite fun uh.. amusing too! He has no experience.. and we're there, to well, support him! I guess I'm a little mean as my role was the Devil's Advocate.

Ahh.. cut the crap. I'm tired. Have to study uh; I've got a paper tomorrow.

People in love. When am I going to love again? I wonder when will that come by... No courage, no confidence, I doubt it will come soon.. haha, nevermind luh ; D

My beloved class

2008-08-17T03:20:00.009+08:00

I will never forget this particular CDS class.. one of the most outstanding classes I've ever been in!

Though we only spent one semester together, it felt like as if we've known each other for years... we are so comfortable with each other, we love each other, we are lame and we rawkzZ man ; D

An Encounter at BusLab

2008-08-16T12:29:00.007+08:00

Today I went to Business School computer lab to print past year examination papers. I decided to be a gentleman today by letting others to print first, since all those already in the Computer Lab 6, are all girls (:

So.. I waited. and I waited.. and they're really taking a hell lot of time. Uh, girls. what are you printing uh.. hahaha

So I went to ask this sweet-looking girl, Hey are you done printing? (:

Then she was like.. Umm, nah.. not yet. I'm having some problems.

So I went to ask further on what kind of problems was she facing. I found out that she did not know how to print documents from PDF files. (Those of you who are experienced enough would know that you need to add printers first before you can print PDF files)

So I went to teach her and stuff, how to do duplex (i.e. print on both sides of the paper), how to print two pages on one page. After I was done, she was amazed : DD

Then she went over to tell the other girls that this guy can help them too. Hell yeah, so I went over and teach the others too..

I think she said I'm her hero or something... okay stop it Ashraf =P

To add on top of my good deeds today, the sweet-looking girl did not bring enough papers for printing. Ashraf, as you all know, the kiasu-kid, brought like about 500 pcs of printing paper. So I gave her like a 100, yes ahh..

While she was printing, we got to know each other. Like, what course was she from, etc.. you know ^^

After all the printing, she came over. She said something like she wants to pay for the paper that I gave her. I refused to accept anything, I just said nevermind, it's okay.

The last she said was (she apprently saw my cute Vaio), Oh.. your laptop. My boyfriend also.. =.=

Okay it ends here. Don't want to talk about this already. Hahaha. I just find it cool how knowing IT stuff can make you the coolest guy in the lab ; D

Have a good day guys ^^

Purchasing Revision

2008-08-15T22:48:00.004+08:00

heeya ; D

Today I went to study with Yuanhao Ge ge... study Purchasing at MPlib de, quite nice ; D

I have to say.. 1/3 of the time we were talking about other things. Lots of guy stuff, really cool man. Though we talked about all those uber cool stuff, we did study. It's like the study smart method de.. not those memorise-until-like-shit kinds, hell yeah ^^

Ge ge taught me a lot luh.. say he never really study whatthefish luh.. haha, don't be embarrased la, if you at home like nerd, then just say la. Hahaha : DD

Anyway, enjoyed myself today. I've been happy for the past few days.. I'm just happy. I wish this happiness can go on for a very long... long time (:

Coursework Grades

2008-08-15T09:05:00.006+08:00

For Public Speaking, it's already confirmed. I'm getting a B+.. I missed by 1%, if not, A le ^^. But it's alright uh, the fact I never really attended lectures, I didn't do homework for PS, I didn't really prepare for my final presentation..

B+'s still quite okay (:

For others,

I didn't expect my LSCM to be a B+. I know I got pretty low for lab assignment because of someone; the sacrifice I had to make because someone else did not prioritise me. I didn't expect it to pull down my grades. I guess it's just meant to be.

Purchasing, I'm a little disappointed that my project only pulled me up two grades, i.e. from C+ to B+. A lot of my friends' grades also pulled up by two, that is to show that my project isn't that good anyway.

Management Science, I got an A. I'm aiming Distinction for this subject, it's my favourite uh.

Operations Management, I got an A. If I work really hard.. haha, I can get a Distinction too ^^

Last year, I managed to get all A's for my coursework. Turns out, I only got 3A's/3B+'s. I hope to score an A for all the other 4 subjects left. I know I can do it! Yeah man..

If I succeed, my GPA will increase by 0.06! Ashraf, jiayou!

Assignment: Resort Mgt

2008-08-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I submitted my assignment for my Resort Management module at Auston, i.e. the Introduction to the Gaming Industry. My lecturer's from NTU, mainly for Nanyang Business School (of which, is no. 3 in Asia Pacific).

I was pretty scared uh. His standards are really high, you know. On top of that, my lecturer is some perfectionist-kind of person, like me (I kena my own shit now sia ... sian). He will comment about every single thing.. the format, the font size, the alignment... everything =x

After I submitted, I ask him to comment on mine. I think he was pretty impressed with my work. I know my referencing still sucked a little, but overall... my argument and stuff, he said it was pretty good. He also did gave me ample advice on how I can ace my assignment next time.

After class, my classmates taught me the university way of answering questions, I find that even cooler! Yes ahh~~!

Another happy day for me last night (:

Happy Birthday

2008-08-14T13:52:00.002+08:00

Heeya guys.

I’m quite happy with my day so far. As I’m soon to be in Welfare, I and several Welfare members took the initiative to engage others to sing a birthday song for Mrs. Pang, our lecturer for Operations Management.

I expected that the outcome was atrocious because it was a last minute thing.

However, the after-effect was awesome!

After most students left the Lecture Theatre, there are about a group of 10 plus students who stayed behind and chatted with Mrs. Pang. They wished her happy birthday and sincerely spent time talking to her; appreciate her and stuff. If I and the others didn’t take the initiative, I wouldn’t have seen the happy smile on Mrs. Pang.

I’m overjoyed that I made someone happy today, and…

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MRS PANG! XD

Contented

2008-08-13T20:36:00.004+08:00

I'm pretty contented. In less than a month's time, I will be transferred to Welfare committee. Reconciliation with my fellow buddies ; D

woo, big thanks to Yuanhao for voluntarily being my psychiatrist and my aunt agony ^^

I feel so happy de, talking to him and others all day. Kai xin!!

what's sad is I have to continue my Secretary position till LOM Day is over.. oh man :(

Feeling down

2008-08-02T19:36:00.006+08:00

I went out with Rick twice this week. Thanks dear for taking your time off your busy schedule, I know your A's are near and stuff. Ahh man, though you're in JC, you still make time for me! yay XD

I was feeling quite down this week, that's for sure. Many issues on my mind, haha. At least he was there to calm me down and got me back on track! woo

Leavin'

2008-07-19T19:13:00.001+08:00

I was tired of listening to Leavin' by Jesse McCartney. & I'm tired of listening to my old playlist on my phone. So I thought.. "hey, why not listen to the radio?"

I tuned in and it was playing it, playing Leavin'. Oh man..

"Don't stress, don't stress, don't stress"
-.-

I kissed a girl

2008-07-14T22:50:00.006+08:00

My quiet friend Karen sent me this song "I Kissed A Girl". It's disgusting, seriously... imagine Karen kissing another girl and she likes it. Or imagine... I kissed a guy and I liked it. Imagine Ashraf kissing another guy. Urgh man, that's just off the hook =x

But I just find it so addictive. Can't get enough of it! =x

Katy Perry
I Kissed A Girl

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what, good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

What I want

2008-07-12T09:40:00.007+08:00

I was reading my junior's blog, specifically Jonathan from Drama Club. I love his blog because he's very sincere when he blogs. It's very down to earth, no hidden agenda driven, and he is very much being himself. You can really get to know him just by reading his posts. He's humorous, he's caring.

I was just reading the letter he wrote for his late dad. I was touched. I guess he's able to express his feelings out here in the net. I too, miss my late dad. But I can't translate how I feel to words. It's just all inside me. A lot of things that I want to say, I can't write it. It's just tough for me.

I love my dad, I love my mum. I love my family. I love my friends. & I love this particular person.

Ahh.

I know that I can't get everything I want in this world. I can't get her. I can't get a lot of things.

I want my dad back here in this world. I want my mum and my siblings to live as long as they can as I age, to hear me and guide me with my life. I want my friends to always be there for me. I want her to be by my side forever.

Some things we can't control, and what I want I don't think I can get it.

Gah. Why am I blogging this early in the morning? Hahaha. I don't know.

Anyway, I'll be with Tse Yun in the library later.

Take care guys! Enjoy your weekend (:

Everyone's busy

2008-07-11T19:50:00.007+08:00

I want to go to this annual suppliers exhibition at Suntec today. I asked around. It seemed that everyone have got their own plans already.

I think asked about... say five, or six people. I have to agree that Fridays are boyfriend/girlfriend time, hahaha. Well, it's okay. Nothing I can do about it.

I ended up going home and spent time with my baby sister. Read her some books, played with some of her toys, talk crap to her.

I guess the day is not that bad after all (:

SCA: Attachments/Internships

2008-07-10T20:58:00.010+08:00

I met lots of people at the annual Supply Chain Asia Forum. I’m a bit disappointed though, I lost a couple of very important name cards :(

I was offered attachments and internships from various companies. It's all over the world. However, I'm interested in investing my time learning from Aramex. Perhaps - still in the process of planning - I'll fly to Dubai or Jordan to train there during my holidays in August and February. Hmm, still deciding. Or I can just go to nearby KL w/ offerings from BSAF (Asia Pacific). How? o.O

Those of you who want to have attachments or internships with some logistics & scm companies, just contact me and I will forward you to them.

P.S. I think even if I was still a PACEsetter, I wouldn't have met so many people with very high profiles. & here I am, having the opportunity to talk to many of them. Hahaha ^^

Apologies

2008-07-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

Sorry everyone, I am down for the Supply Chain Asia Forum 2008. I would not be updating till this Friday.

Name card

2008-07-07T19:22:00.007+08:00

fyi, as mentioned: I'm attending the annual Supply Chain Asia Forum 2008.

I made a name card for myself. Well... somehow regretted getting it printed in red, should have considered that blue or black is more corporate-looking. Anyway, here it is:

Greenviewans, laugh.. laugh XDD

Feeling awkward

2008-07-07T17:41:00.010+08:00

I crashed T04’s Operations Management tutorial class today. I am crashing most of their classes this week due to the upcoming Supply Chain Asia Forum 2008.

I felt awkward. Awkward because... firstly, I came late. 9.15 leh, what a bad first impression. Awkward because it's not my class. Awkward because... I didn't know whether the class accepted me.

Nevertheless, I still had a group of friends there. Walau eh, the girls in my group pressurised me to present the answer for question two – of which I screwed up, forcing Mrs. Pang herself to explain to the class the expected answer. I think I did quite badly because no one clapped for me; as those who presented got an applause from the class =x

Haha, I was just kidding. Please, so lame can. It did not matter whether anyone clapped or not, what mattered most was that I attended the tutorial and learnt something new XD

I gladly rushed to the new E!hub to catch Hancock. Awesome stuff! You should go watch it too.

Then had lunch with my classmates at The Designer Pad, our usual hangout place.

After lunch, had Logistics and Supply Chain Management lecture. I enjoyed the lecture though - it's usually boring - because it was my first time this semester I sat with Yilin. It has been quite some time that I sat with the beauty.

Thing left to be done: Service Reflection for APEL and Q5 in Management Science. Ahh, man >.<

Worrying results

2008-07-06T19:03:00.008+08:00

I have finally resigned from PACEsetters.

I know for sure one of the reasons why I left is for me to have more time for my studies.

My TP care person Mr Lim reiterated though that exemplary results are not everything, it is still the most important criteria when universities evaluate you. Minimum requirement for NUS Business School is GPA > 3.6.

With my current results, I will still be able to enter.

But recent mid-semester results got me worrying. My Purchasing Practices & Principles got a pathetic C+, and the supposedly easy-to-score Public Speaking only gave me B+. If I do not improve, my GPA for this semester will drop to a 3.39 =x

Study smart Ashraf, I believe you can do it! ^^

2008-06-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

I got a position as in-charge of Food and Beverages for a particular event, in a particular student organisation. My job is to (1) choose the food within the budget and, (2) get a caterer. yay, at last in-charge of something… woo, main comm

After doing all my necessary work, I submit my proposals to the main comm.

AND GUESS WHAT

I was informed that some high profile member of the main comm already got his choice of caterer. C’mon man, it’s like what the heaven.

The person didn’t even inform me and the fact that I’m in-charge of F&B the more he should tell me. I had to do double work. And the thing is, no voting among the main comm was involved. No three quotes. No AVL, he just chooses that caterer because maybe it’s someone close to him or something.

I’m lodging a complain to the main comm.. This kind of thing happened before during the previous event, when I was a sub comm where this kind of double-work occurs.

Wasted my time researching for caterers and writing proposals, wasted my phone bills, wasted my effort. Everything down the drain

…because of one guy.

2008-06-15T23:47:00.001+08:00

I went to the airport today specifically and specially to send Jun Hong off. He’s a really nice and sincere guy, so I think this is one of the few things that I can do to cheer him up. His grandfather passed away recently :’(

Other than Jun Hong, there were Yi Liang, Yun Xia, Jun Hui, Sean, Darren, Yi Lin, Kai Lee, Sui Ying, Min Min, Ivan, Lee Lin, Ann, Michelle… I only some of those who are going.

They’ll be back on Friday night if I’m not wrong. I’ll be there too : DD

2008-06-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

I’m going to airport later to send off my course mates who are leaving for Korea. Thought I could go with my twin Melody, but she’s going with someone else. Everyone else is occupied, I suppose. Ahh.. sian la go alone. =X

Dedric is free in the evening, but I think he needs a break. Don’t want to ask him to accompany me. Don’t feel like asking anyone else also...

I guess I’ll leave my house now. Heading to airport and start with my Basics of Entrepreneurship assignment and my PACEsetters Duty Report.

2008-06-12T15:20:00.002+08:00

Gah, I just spent my day watching Fated to Love You.
Nice show XDD

2008-06-08T10:17:00.005+08:00

Ashraf is a lazy person. He refuses to work. But in the end, he still ended up working. The office has been calling me almost once in every two days, so I guess they really needed staff. I can’t be that bad and just pang seh them, right?

I started work at six in the evening. First time in the history of working in ST when this happened when I wanted to get my uniform:

This is a conversation I had with the Auntie In-charge of the Uniforms yesterday

Me: Auntie, Banquet. L
Auntie: Sorry boy, no more L.
Me: Okay, fine. XL then
Auntie: Umm. Let me see… try on this
Me: *Trying out w/out seeing the size*

Me: Auntie, too big leh… I look so fat, hahaha.
Auntie: Yeah, of course. It’s XXL.
Me: WHAT THE…

The Auntie said there were too many people working today till the hotel ran out of uniforms for Banquet staff. How can that be? And how in the world.. am I going to wear an XXL?

I just couldn’t believe it la. Going back to work after so long and have to suffer because of the freaking new staff. Anyway, I bumped into Shiyao on my way up. He was going to Basement 3 and change because his shift is over. I immediately said “I don’t care how sweaty you are. I need to wear your uniform now. I can’t wear this, it’s too big.”

I guess he was shocked, of course. I ended up wearing his uniform – the one that he had been wearing since 7 a.m.? Haha… don’t care la XDD

My AM told me I was allocated the reserved table: Table 25 in the Grand Ballroom. If it’s not opened, I’m to handle Table 7 in Topez Room. So basically for the first half an hour or so, I was checking on both tables. And there there, Eden never get table sia. He only got attached with some pro-guy at Table 11 in the Grand Ballroom.

My serving sucks last night. My table was kind enough to give me a “5,5,4,4,5,5,5,5” rating last night. Almost all 5 la. Their comment was “A very hardworking boy”. That means I’m not good la, just TRYING HARD. Gah… whatever la. I know I suck.

What made my day was when two pretty ladies from my table say.. 20 years old, came up to me after the last course was being served and said “Hey, you did a great job today. We appreciate it. Hope to see you again!”

I bet they’re being nice. I was lost for words because I know I suck and I didn't expect this so I just said “Err… thanks. I love your smile, by the way. Your smile is very nice. Haha, keep smiling okay (X”

She was like “REALLY? Oh my God, okay thanks!”

They’re really sweet luh… I wished I was that handsome Wu Zun or smth, then they’d be like. “Oh, you’re handsome too!”

Wu Zun

(Sorry I'm in the Romantic Princess/Hana Kimi mode now)

I was supposed to end at “Closing Time”. Both Eden and I wrote “Cls” on the payment sign-in list. I want to go home with him ma. Apparently, my AM had two timings for closing. 12 and 1 a.m. and I didn't know about it.

And he chose me to be one out of the four 1 a.m. closing staff. Pathetic.

Guess who I saw at the staff canteen after ending work? IT WAS IVY MAMA. She asked me to sing the Ting Ma Ma De Hua.. and I was like, sorry la, never practise ar

Haha. What a long day! I miss a lot of people from work.

2008-06-07T10:11:00.005+08:00

The time has come. My mid-semester tests have come to an end. I’m glad it’s over. It's all over. More free time. More time to watch Korean/Taiwan dramas. More time to go out with friends. More time to work.

I predict that I’ll score A for both Management Science (MS) and Logistics & Supply Chain Management (LSCM). Sad to say, it's a B/B+ for Purchasing Principles & Practises and Operations Management (OM). I've always been scoring A’s for almost all of my mid-semester tests. I guess this time round I took things too easily.

I studied the most for Purchasing.

For OM, I did try to memorise certain things. Most of it I treated like common sense. I only studied when I was with Melody in the study room… and that was like.. er, 3 hours only? I slept when I got back home. I only revised again in the morning of the paper.

For LSCM, I wrote most of my notes on Thursday morning. I revised when I was with Eden. I revised again on the morning of the paper. What got me going was when I saw Aik Kim’s notes. It was damn good, I tell you. It’s the typical Rick-kinda notes. It was good. It was perfect. And that is what I'll most probably say, studying smart.

I didn’t even touch MS can? I went to Charmaine’s house for some revision. Eden corrected me on some mistake I did for the Decision Tree Analysis. & that was it =X

Well, I just hope for the best.

* * *

Melody's grandfather passed away on Thursday evening at the National University Hospital. My condolences to the family of the late.

* * *

Last night, I still did eventually go out with my friends. My DEAR, Jinhao and his cousin. We watched Kungfu Panda. I thought that hey it might be some typical cartoon show & most probably I'll slept. But it turned out otherwise; It was dammmnnn good!

I’m not a good movie reviewer but I have to say the colours are enriching and real, the graphics were excellent. It would be better if they were human beings. Then isn’t it nice to see a young beautiful lady in the show where the animators will ensure it’s some half-hentai material or smth?

Okay, I was just kidding.

We headed down to Mac after the show. Rick took this:

He bought the McSpicy Nuggets and the freaking huge Onion Rings XDD

2008-06-05T19:32:00.004+08:00

On my way back home now. Typing this blog post on the bus.

I spent almost three to four hours with Eden and his friend Lynette at Bedok Interchange McDonald’s revising for our last paper. Lynette is Eden’s former classmate and reads Business in Temasek Busines School.

There I go again: I ENJOYED MY TIME TODAY. I enjoyed, and have always enjoyed my time out with Eden. Today, he told me something: Not to lie. For those of you who know me quite well, I do lie. I lie a lot. Even if it’s some white lie, it’s still a lie.

Thou shall not lie.

I know it’s a bad habit. Now that someone said it, I don’t think I want to be known as a person who lies a lot. Anyway, a lie is ultimately a sin most of the times. Ashraf must stop lying.

Just now we did discuss about revelations when we were slacking. The difference in content in the Holy Quran and the Bible. I am ashamed to admit that I myself don’t even know thoroughly what’s going to happen.

I haven’t been paying much attention to the sermons on Friday either. What’s happening to me man, I’m getting so drifted apart. This Friday, the sermon will be on ‘Facing the Challenge of Global Warming’ – series of sermons on Contemporary Issue.

For the benefit of others, the sermon for this Friday can be downloaded here. Just so you know, the sermon being read in all mosques throughout Singapore are all the same for they are being issued by the Islamic Religious Council of Singapore (MUIS).

& guess what: I still can dare to spend my time on attending service and CG in church this Saturday.

I’m disappointed in you, Ashraf ;/

2008-06-05T00:47:00.006+08:00

My mid-semester tests are coming to an end. I’ve got one more paper left, and I’m yet to start revising. I already did the outline of what to revise for this paper, but I’m still yet to really sit down and start making notes.

So far, my first three papers were quite okay. I’m quite confident for Management Science. I still do, however, worry for Purchasing and Operations Management. I might get a B/B+ for those two. Whatever the outcome, I’ll accept. B/B+’s not that bad anyway for a student like me ^__^

I’m going to start with my notes at 1 a.m & end around say… 3? I’m meeting Eden later today at 2 p.m. for revision woots. Looking forward to study with him later hahaha. He always makes me laugh XDD

UPDATE: I was just reading Charmaine's blog. OMG IT'S DAMN FUNNY CAN. That's because I saw what happened. HAHA, IT'S DAMN FUNNY HAHAHA. XDDD

Charmaine, you're changing. See.. you starting to blog alr : DD

2008-06-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

I was like looking at Melody’s classes when she was in primary and secondary schools, and in Polytechnic. Here is mine:

Tampines Primary School
1.6, 2.6, 3.6
4.12
5.2, 6.2 Second class not so bad la..

Greenview Secondary School
1E1, 2E1, 3E1, 4E1
E1’s all the way!

Temasek Secondary School
2VS, 3VS, 4VS
I think it's either VS or HML,
whichever applies. I love TMS! : D

Temasek Polytechnic
1B16
2O01 First class again D:

2008-06-01T16:40:00.002+08:00

Eden was conducting his series of lectures when I was at his place just now to revise for mid-semester test. Not on Purchasing, but on myself. Hahaha

He told me (1) not to express my emotions/feelings too openly with all factors considered in like the time, place and (2) spend more time with my classmates.

I wholeheartedly accept those statements and I shall see what I can do to change. I don't feel offended though. After all, what are best of friends for when they don’t tell what they think about you.

2008-05-24T20:50:00.001+08:00

THE BLOG OF IAMASHRAF

Minutes of meeting of the HEART AND SOUL of KAMILUL ASHRAF held at 8.20 pm on Saturday, 24 May 2008 in His Excellency Kamilul Ashraf’s bedroom.

PRESENT: IAMASHRAF, Presiding Member
Fellow blog members

IN ATTENDANCE: Kamilul Ashraf B Kamsani,
Secretary to His Excellency

Quorum: Not required
Members present: A few
________________________________________________

Apologies were received from His Excellency Kamilul Ashraf as he did not update his blog and reply messages at his tag-board for a period of time; for he had other urgent matters to attend to.

The Presiding Member welcomed Aaron Teo, current boyfriend of Melody Lau Hui Ping. Lau is holding the position of ‘twin’ to His Excellency. He also indicated that other blog readers were welcome as observers but would not be able to speak without permission. He reinstated that even if permission is granted, they would have no say for they do not hold any stake in this organisation.

The Presiding Member informed the board that the session today will be informative instead of the usual discussion.

1. MINUTES OF THE PREVIOUS MEETING
The minutes of the meeting held on 20 May 2008 were confirmed and signed.

2. ARRANGEMENT OF AGENDA

2.1 Starring of items
Item 4 was starred in addition to those already starred.

2.2 Adoption of unstarred recommendation
A motion to adopt the unstarred item was received and carried.

3. BUSINESS ARISING FROM THE MINUTES
There was no business arising from the previous minutes

4. CURRENT AFFAIRS

4.1 The official Pronouncement of Melody and Aaron
After Lejon, Hui Yong… and now, Aaron. Well clearly, I don’t see where I can possibly fit in. Perhaps I was playing chess, and you were playing checkers. Check and mate,

… queen me. I don’t have anything else to say. Some others say, it was expected. I was informed on Thursday evening via a phone call when I was with my dear & jinhao watching Indiana Jones at Cathey informing me that they are already together. No comments. I wish all the best for the couple.

4.2 Taiwan and Korean dramas
I’ve been watching one Taiwan drama ‘It Started with a Kiss’, and another Korean ‘Wonderful Life’. Haha, anyone of you watch it alr? : D

4.2 Mid-semester tests
Mid-semester tests are coming up! Pressure builds up as some prepare to triumph the class and you can’t just stand there and do nothing. Despite that, I perceive it as healthy competition, so… buckle up Ashraf! It’s time of the year again where you have to get back to your conscience so as to remind yourself that you must not let anything else affect you.

There being no further business, the meeting closed at 8.50 pm.

SIGNED AS A TRUE RECORD

___________________________
Presiding Member / /08

2008-05-20T20:47:00.004+08:00

Another day at school. Yi Liang would know I had, and still have a bad headache. Despite that, I still did enjoy LSCM tutorial class today. Mr Johnny Tan was exceptionally lame sia, seriously. & Donovan believed that it was his birthday today -.-

At 5 p.m., LOMIG had its first Juniors’ Meeting. I stand alone, being the only one who chose to be the IG’s secretary. I managed to drag my twin sister Melody to be the other. It was a good move, because now I’m able to push all the work to her.

Besides, she’s running for main-comm. Let her do the tedious work ^^

On my way home, I bumped into Esther at the overhead bridge. She loves to punch me every time she sees me. I’ve not seen her for quite some time in school, and you know what: I kinda miss her punching. So just now, I told her straight into her face: Eh, punch me lehh XDD

& she did, and I asked to do it again. It felt good, haha really. It didn’t hurt a ‘lil bit. I guess I miss her too ;/

2008-05-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

I didn't had the mood to go out today.. as much as I didn't want to, when it's meant to be, it will ^__^

There, there Yi Liang: That’s the proof I went out with my China friends today. omg, I suck in the photo but whatever, a photo is a photo

Yes, it’s true. I went out with my China friends i.e. Li Kai, Ivy and Sam. && it was awesome! We walked around Parco then on to Bugis Junction… then we took a taxi to Chinatown for dinner. Ivy my mama felt super bad because almost nothing is Halal at Chinatown so she brought me to McDonalds for dinner, then had her dinner with the rest at some Chinese restaurant.

I learnt a mouthful of Chinese words there, like xiao mei, xue, etc. etc. hahas XDD

After dinner, we walked from there back to Bugis where we played pool. I suck in pool, actually today is my second time trying out. I did improve, a bit. At least there was improvement : DD

Ivy and Li Kai are really good in pool sia, must learn from ‘em.

I guess today is my last outing before preparing for mid-sem. Time to study Ashraf, time to get back to reality DD:

2008-05-19T12:11:00.002+08:00

My original plan was to go have project meeting with my group in the morning, then out with Tse Yun in the afternoon, then with Yi Lin in the evening.

For my Operations Management project, I made an appointment with the Operations Manager/Head/Director whichever applies, I’m not really sure of Cathay Organisation. She couldn’t confirm on the timing, so I had to cancel my outing with Tse Yun.

I waited till midnight for the confirmation, but there was no answer from the Cathay lady. When I woke up at 4:44 a.m. in the morning seriously it was 4:44 bad luck sia, then I saw the sms saying that she’s free at 2 p.m. today. It’s unfair that everyone has to meet her schedule especially if it’s last minute, so I postponed it to Wednesday.

Since I cancelled it with Tse Yun, I confirmed with Li Kai that I could go out today in the late afternoon. It was a cheena outing sia, Eden, Ivy and Li Kai sure speak Mandarin all the way. Anyway, Eden fell sick. So it’s no fun ;/

So I told Li Kai not today, sorry.

Called Yi Lin just now to double check for tonight: She said she got to go to some temple thing, important.. etc. I have no choice but to respect, it’s Vesak Day afterall.

I guess I’ll be at home today to touch up on my work.

I’m stressed, but relax Ashraf take things easily. I still have two more modules, only then I can complete my Advanced Diploma in Resort Management. Not only that, I have no $$$ left to continue with my bachelor for RM. Poly’s Mid-sem is coming up! I’m yet to complete my strategy-excel thing. I’m yet to revise my work. I know that my close friends will score all A’s for Mid-sem so I better buck up!

Oh yes, my close friends are all getting attached soon : D

2008-05-18T09:47:00.002+08:00

Good morning everyone.

I’m employed by some company that sells Traditional Chinese Medicine so I’m down just for one day, i.e. today to help them promote their products : D

Guess what? I didn’t feel like working today, so I didn’t work. Okay, I know you’ll be like so what...

But, hey it’s an achievement. Saying no to my boss. I don’t even feel guilty at all I used to feel bad all the time, thinking too much la... haha. Clearly, I’m still tired. I’m exhausted. I don’t want him to pay a weak employee; I feel bad if I accept his money so might as well I don’t work for him. As long as I know what I’m doing is right, I shouldn’t and will not feel bad.

I’m going to rest today, I need the rest.

2008-05-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

Sir, I reached home at 9.31 p.m : D

I don’t want to talk about yesterday, or the day before… I don’t think I want to. I just want to talk about today, because I am happy. wooots It’s been so long… anyway,

I want to change, I feel the need to change. Yes, I know change is constant -.- but you get what I mean, right? I better change before the ones I love and care about run away from me. I change because I want the best for myself.

Wanting to change is good, but can I? It’s not as easy as it seems.

Today, instead of putting on a moody face, I went to work with a smile! Haha, that’s because Eden worked with me too. I think today I laughed and giggled a lot because of him. I really laugh a lot, seriously. & we joked around, went on being sarcastic… then on to lameness, to serious stuff, back to random stuff, then joking again… He gave a lot of good advices too, so I thank you (X

That’s all I have to say. I think I’ll end it here. Nights
godbless! ^^

2008-05-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

I was out with Yi Liang in the evening, haha. As usual, guy talk. It was interesting. I was talking and talking.. and I then realised: I got this super cool gift, till I made Yi Liang speechless.

I went back home and tried it with my mum, and she was, too, speechless : DD

2008-05-12T01:30:00.008+08:00

I went over to Doris’ place in the evening.

For those of you who don’t know, she is the Spa Director at Fairmount Singapore, formerly Raffles The Plaza hotel. I got to know her from Auston, where she was my Resort Management classmate. She is leaving for Egypt to take up the Spa Director position at the Four Seasons there. She was having a small gathering at her place with her close friends before she leaves for Egypt.

Chandra, the second-in-charge of F&B operations at ST a.k.a my boss used to work under her. She too, came along for the small gathering. It was abit weird because she’s my boss, duh but it was alright in the end. There were about 10 people in Doris’ place, so it was quite cosy and I love the food : DD

Sad that she’s leaving though ;/
I wish her all the best, may God bless her always (X

Then I rushed to meet Eden at my bus stop; he’s coming over to my place for some CCN stuff. We wanted to try out the different kinds of kernel corns before selling it on the actual day.

so yellow, so business school -.-

what a cute green steamer : D

MARGERINE. I know what's butter and margerine la..

I walked with him to his block so at least I get to know where he lives. We talked. & it was nice having someone that you can really talk to about what you want to talk about. You can just be who you are.

It ended on a good note. Eden’s an amiable & understanding person and smart, haha. I think so far I can talk to him on the same frequency, and the most important: I can trust him. I bet this year’s CCN Day will be great knowing that I’ll work together with people I’m close with.

2008-05-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

I was with Jin Hao and Yi Liang @ Downtown East McCafe. We went for out dinner at BK and left our bags at the café, lol, wth. I felt horrible when Jin Hao found out he ordered something that he couldn’t eat: He ordered BK Whooper, and it totally didn’t come to my mind that it was beef. How could I man.. ahh, damn. ;/ I could have reminded him or something.

I left at 1030 frustrated not being able to solve this Management Science question. Haha, Eden the 99% smart 1% hardworking guy watch out... tomorrow when I meet you I’m going to pester you to help me out! XD

Planet Shakers's Free is nice, heard of the whole album alr?

2008-05-09T23:39:00.005+08:00

Dear all, I hope many of you are aware of the Cyclone Nargis that hit Myanmar recently. Together with the Singapore Red Cross, TP’s Community Service Club will be collecting donations for those in need. Please support us!

12 – 13 May (Monday & Tuesday)
10 a.m. to 4 p.m. @ Outside the Library

P.S I'm in TP's CSC : DD

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I was rushing through with PACE’s stuff yesterday, lots of things still not done for the upcoming AY08/09 Annual General Meeting. Lucky I didn’t run for the main committee, being in the subcomm is already quite taxing. Time flew and I totally forgotten that I’ve got something on in the evening.

OMG. You know SiFE & Toastmasters meetings clash. I can't attend both right.. so:

So I rushed my way to LT28 to attend the second Chapter Meeting of TP’s Toastmasters. Get SEAL points just by attending the meeting sia.. anyway, I didn’t know anyone, I suppose. Then I saw some familiar faces.

I saw Saifuddin, my primary school close friend, I saw Shanaz, Jessie’s ADM classmate, then it was Deeraj, the Vice-President (Membership)… he was, I mean it… was Sonam’s friend. Not that bad afterall. Mr Ted was the Teacher Advisor for TM, & he’s great! I also got to know this freshie from Enginneering woots

I was quiet throughout the whole meeting, & only cheered when the Toastmaster of the Evening was shouting Business rocks & other school sucks etc. hahaha. TM’s current President Nawira did a Project 10 speech on Self-Mutilation. The pictures she projected on PowerPoint were bloody. It was painful. It was tears of blood DD:

Anyways, I enjoyed myself. Yi Liang and Yun Xia worry too much, people.. please calm them down. Eden’s enjoying himself at work, that’s great. I was regretting bringing him to work when he said he didn’t really like working there last week, but things got better. Going out with Jinhao, Farid and Yi Liang later to mug.

2008-05-09T00:24:00.001+08:00

It sucks when you can’t tell anyone anything, and you’re just down. Thank God there was at least... one, there was one.

Thanks bro (:

2008-05-06T21:46:00.003+08:00

Every day after around 8.30 p.m, I’ll feel so weak. It seems as if someone put a spell on me or something. I thought it was that Vitamin C that I take every day that’s causing this lol, I seriously thought its poisoned or something, but anyway so I didn’t take it today: doesn’t make a difference =X

Now, my headache refuses to go away.
I am struggling with my Management Science tutorial.
There are so many things on my mind, but I don’t know specifically what they are.

I know definitely I’m worried. My insecurities are beginning to exploit my calm state of mind. I’m all tensed up ;/

I know I need someone to be with me to reverse whatever that is happening, to help me get back in track. I just don’t know who the person is. Well, I hope the person will come to me soon… ^___^

2008-05-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

To Eden: Yes, you do express yourself quite openly. & for the record, when I said 我恨你, I was just kidding, yeah? I just learnt that from Yi Liang la, that’s why I was going around practicing saying it well. Anyway, you happy when I’m not around ar? Haha. Just say so la.. then I go away.

To Yi Liang: woots, thank you for spending more time with me & the class, I see progress.. progress my brother, good : D

I’m blogging later. Dinner now (X

2008-05-04T04:28:00.004+08:00

I thought things will be better today at work. As soon as I reached the Banquet office, kena blasting sia. It was bad, infact I’ve not had someone raise his voice to me that high since ever? I don’t remember getting scolded… maybe the last time, it was in secondary two. Can’t really recall. But anyway as I was saying, it was nasty. The best part was that it’s not even my fault. I was just following my AM’s instructions.

Anyway, I didn’t want to get that particular AM involved… I don’t like getting others in that pile of shit; so I chose to blame myself in front of my boss. Just say “I understand, I’m sorry” or something like that… as long as he’s happy.

I’ve got a lot of comments, but I can’t lay it here. It’s too much of a p&c material.

So as I was saying, I was blasted at. Thanks Eden for being there, oh man. Thanks. If you weren’t there, I think I would have left work and just go to Ritz-Carlton straight.

Throughout the day, I was quiet. Kumaran asked me to do Chinese lunch at Diamond Room, and then helped him out at Amber Room for some organisation’s AGM.

The best part of today was the last 20 minutes of work. Li Kai was talking to me, and we were talking about lots of stuff la… like, I don’t know… I just don’t know how to explain, but it was real. We talked about how we can still meet each other after work – as in real work after we graduate. A lot la.

I treat him like an older brother, it’s really nice having him around. I don’t feel crappy, I don’t feel stupid. I am just being myself when I’m with him. As of now, I think he is the only one that listens to my ramblings at work. I just look up to him la, and since he wanted this so much…

I hereby declare that Li Kai of ST is my role model for a few decades not for life ar hahaha (X

Li Kai & Ivy

Ivy said Li Kai is her part-time boyfriend, haha. Okay I know she was just kidding because she got someone else already, right? =P

Ivy again.

She insisted me of posting it here, haha. She's my mama at work. & I'm suppose to learn how to sing 聽媽媽的話 before Mother's Day sia.. die! =X

2008-05-03T10:09:00.003+08:00

I want to blog today, but I don’t really have much time. I’m leaving for work at 10.55, and I’ll only be back at 12 a.m.

I was quite down yesterday, gah. For all it’s worth, I know I dislike the F&B Manager of the hotel. I mean c’mon la, when you see someone doing something wrong, CORRECT the person. Don’t tell the WORLD to correct you, idiot. Especially when you’re a person with that rank, speak nicely can?

Why, your rank too high alr is it? Oh yes, I forgot. Sorry sir, your time is precious. It saves time to tell the world to correct me, right? Sorry sir, I should have been understanding... idiot idiot

Nevermind, nevermind. Be patient Ashraf. I’m going to prove to that guy that I am one of the best staff he will ever have.

2008-05-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

I will worship you… I will worship you…
I will worship you… I will worship you…

I was supposed to hang out with Sonam in the afternoon today, but she had something on last minute. So I went out with my dear and Jinhao : DD

They kept saying I’m rich and all. Oh c’mon what the hell, haha. I shall save, happy? I’ll save $10,000 okay? I need to save anyway, need it for my overseas internship. I wanna work for Wal-Mart! ^^

Anyway, we watched Superhero Movie. It's kinda like the Epic Movie, better.. but not that good. I've not seen a perfect movie anyway okay maybe Titanic where I won't get sick of watching it but it was okay la, quite funny : DD

The girl is hot.. so guys, watch it kay! Haha. I'm still looking forward to The Love Guru.

I don't have school tomorrow boohoo, you're all losers got school tomorrow right? haha. I guess I'll end it here now. God bless you all XD

Thank you Lord for being with me… understanding me. Thank you for enlightening me to move on with my life. Thank you, because now I can talk to her comfortably without thinking about the past. I can talk to her, I can care for her so much as a close friend like I’ve not been hurt before. I adore You always. I always will.

God almighty, I pray that I can cope well with my studies this semester. Please help me to stay focus and not let distractions in the way. God, I pray that my beloved family and friends will always be healthy… and please watch over them.

With God’s gracious name I pray, Amin (X

2008-04-30T21:16:00.001+08:00

It’s too early to declare which clique people belonged to, for my class that is. As for me, I’ve been clinging on to some of them. Yi Liang’s been with Yun Xia almost every time so I guess it’s time for me to get close to some of the guys in my class. I’m quite comfortable with only one: Eden. But he got his own friends and all, so I guess maybe I shall just be a loner for a while and see how things goes.

woots, Eden might work at ST.. He’s coming for the interview this Friday, ahh. It’s so cool having a friend at school to work with you (X

2008-04-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

How am I? I’m great, I’m good.

It’s the same old topic again. It’s her. I unsure what got in to me, but it was during my last week’s one year anniversary of liking her… it was that particular day. My close friends encouraged me not to give up on her & pushed me on insisting there might be hope… you’ll never know that kind of thing.

But you know what, if she doesn’t like you, means she don’t. & there’s no if’s here. She doesn’t like you, idiot. Gah, I don’t know why it took me so long to fully digest that.

Whatever it is, seriouslyyy I’ve been improving. Moving on. Be happy for me leh. I’ve been waiting for this for quite some time already ^___^

Thank you, my new classmates esp. Eden for hanging out with me today, haha. It's not so lonely after all.

And to you, I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you, not talking to you, not even glancing at you. I can’t explain why, I’m just sorry about that. By any chance, if you treasure our friendship, you should know what to do.

2008-04-26T17:32:00.002+08:00

The other day when I was at Seoul Garden with my TP family, I met my friends from GV! (X

estelle, bryon & me

me & jho!

wayne & me ^^

me & ming yang

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Then after that, someone's good idea to go to the airport haha. T3 btw

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I was with Kai Lee & Yilin before LOM's orientation last wednesday. Coca-Cola was giving out free Coke Zero.

2008-04-26T17:08:00.004+08:00

Congratulations to Awal! : D

He's now attached with a CHINESE girl, woots! Hahaha. He's supporting the Ashraf's pro-Chinese girl/boyfriend campaign, hahaha... ^__^ I'm racist, I know.

My close Malay girl friend back at TPJC is also getting close with a CHINESE guy.

Ahmad, also from TPJC: He has a CHINESE MJC girlfriend.

My new LOM classmate Hafiz. He too, has a CHINESE girlfriend.

Anyway, there many of my Malay friends out there who are attached with people from other races (X

2008-04-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to Korea!
because she's not going (X

2008-04-24T08:11:00.001+08:00

My grandma, auntie, uncle and my cousin are leaving for Saudi Arabia today for umrah.

Pray that they’ll be fine (:

2008-04-24T07:30:00.006+08:00

If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

2008-04-22T16:56:00.004+08:00

TP family XD

the couple again, Yi Liang requested for this, haha

I went so Seoul Garden today with them, to eat of course. I think I was the first one who brought them there for our family outing. But I guess it’s time to find a new place for us to hang out & chat. For those of you who don’t know, I’m quite silent when I’m there. Hmm, there are always reasons to why I’m like, it’s just that you don’t know (:

It was great that Cheryl and Amy were with us at SE. If it’s just us four LOMmers (me, mel, yl & yx), it’s kinda weird/awkard a ‘lil. It seemed as if me and Mel were disturbing the couple, so yeah.

Phew, I managed to get away from the neoprint machine. Lucky sia, I dislike going inside that thing, haha. I actually didn’t mind today because I was quite happy thus didn’t really bother about my dislike towards that machine, but we had no time. So, woots! XD

I met a whole lot of people today, I really mean it. A lot. There was Wayne Chia, Estelle Lim, Jonathan Ho, Jonathan Loh, Bryon Seng, Bernie Ong, Zadkiel Yeo, Clarissa Tan, Valerie Ong, Nicholas Leong, haha. What’s with me and their surnames. There are a lot more, just that I can’t remember your names, sorry! :O oh yeah, and Ming Yang too. & BASIL!

Then there was my brother’s ex-girlfriend, my auntie, and a few church people.

Anyway, my course is planning a study trip to Seoul. Should I go? Hmm.

2008-04-22T10:07:00.003+08:00

Yi Liang told me to read some books to distract myself or something, so that that feeling will go away. I went to find some of the world's most boring-est books and tried to do that: FAILED! >:

2008-04-21T22:43:00.003+08:00

yunxia, as usual trying to hide herself from my phone's camera

the couple yiliang & yunxia

Not really in the mood to blog today. I'm never going to join LOM's IG, pity.. but yeah, never.

School's cool, I have 4 LOM modules, 2 TP core subjects and 1 CDS. Out of the 4 LOM modules, 3 are of qualitative nature. Gah, it's like business-like subjects all over again.

She didn't bother about me today, ahh ;/

2008-04-20T18:26:00.002+08:00

I spent a good 5 hours waiting for Likai at the airport today. His flight got delayed to 4.40 a.m. Frankly speaking, I couldn’t take it anymore; I’ve not slept for quite some time already, ‘ve been working & working.. ;/

Though, I did try to snooze for a while at the Budget Terminal. Haha, you know I ended up sleeping for an hour on the chairs. Anyway, I was overjoyed upon his arrival, no more sleepy sleepy ^__^

Being around him makes me feel stupid, seriously. Throughout our conversation today, we discussed about Physics, History, Geography and some other stuff. It makes me feel stupid because I don’t know a lot of things, lol.

He was also telling me about the four seasons in China or something like that & he said that I’m spoilt because I complain too much haha; cos’ weather there can be up to 36 – 38 degrees celsius that kind but I’m already complaining about Singapore’s maximum 34.

Then we talked about school. Quite surprisingly, I found out that he was from Coral Secondary. Oh yeah, btw he’s currently taking a diploma in SP’s Singapore Maritime Academy. He’s going to be in the shipping line, that’s where I want to be as well. Just that, Logistics and Operations Management in TP is not specialized enough.

Ahh, what a wrong choice I’ve made.

But whatever it is, I’ll work hard. I’ll psycho myself to study hard like how Likai & Yikai are doing right now. I want to get uber good results XD

2008-04-19T19:32:00.003+08:00

I learn how to fold this today, pretty simple.

Haha, finally.. I got my badge.

One of the AM’s Dennis was having his briefing for tonight’s dinner & dance. Ashraf, having nothing to do, KPO-ed and just stood there. Hahaha, he was like, “Eh, Ashraf?”

Then after that he was like, “F.O., F.O… F.O.” lol, basically that meant fuck off.

Anyway, guess who I met today while doing my duty at Diamond Room? The most unexpected person: Ms. Cheong! For those of you who don’t know, she was my emath teacher for two years back in secondary school.

woots ^__^

2008-04-18T12:41:00.001+08:00

I quite miss her. I actually went back to school today hoping to get a quick glance at her.

2008-04-16T12:33:00.004+08:00

I spent millions of hours searching for a soul mate, one that I have to stick on to for at least for two years straight. Some appeared sexy, but sucked in other areas. Gah, I'm in distress.

I started off my dream hoping to get a MacBook Pro - but it was too heavy. Weight is something I emphasize importance when looking for a suitable choice. It's 2.0kg or less, if not never.

Sony's TZ series are my number one choice in terms of design and battery life. Lenovo's Thinkpad X61s is the best ultraportable in terms of all other factors, except design and lose out slightly in battery life to the TZ.

The other two Fujistu's S6510 and Sony's SZ series are the best two average notebooks.

I really want to get myself a TZ, yet the X61s has a bigger screen.

I guess I need to try out on the TZ for another few more times, & see whether I'm okay with it. I hope I will get used to the small screen. Please God, give me a green light to a smaller screen (X

2008-04-14T11:13:00.005+08:00

For the past few days, I realised that I don’t have the appetite to eat. I’m not sure why, but I wonder… oh well.

Anyway, yesterday I’m quite glad. I went out with Tuty and Farah for dinner at Pizza Hut Isza why you never come la, had a good chat. There were a few times I laughed too much till my tummy hurts.

After the dinner, I did also chat on the phone with both Yikai, & Likai who is still in China. Likai told me to get a IDD card or something like that so it’s cheaper when I call him this Wednesday. He’s coming back this Saturday! ^_______^

P.S. Awal have you watched Sweet 18 yet? Some Korean drama.. I wanna go watch (X

2008-04-12T01:56:00.000+08:00

Just watch the trailer, yeah? Btw, do you get the then my mum got a job joke? Damn funny sia.. ^^

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