Rapunzel hair

After I called her, she sounded dull. The thought of having an enjoyable conversation with her today was unexpectedly diminished instantly. She was at her computer chatting with her friends while I was..

I was with Jin Hao and Jia Jun when I called. At that point after hearing her slow and one-word responses, I gave up. Soon enough I gave an excuse and hung up. I couldn't be bothered to think why she was pathetically deliberating her reponses. Was it because.. I'm too tired to ponder. The six minute and twenty-eight seconds conversation was stricked as a waste of my time.

Here I am with two of my friends under the void deck chatting away as if we've not met for centuries. I am certainly glad to know that there are people that I can talk to.

Our conversation topics were thrilling, exciting, interesting, banal and maybe er.. educational? How often do you discuss on increasing the productivity rate and efficiency of your two (or according to some three) fingers? How often do be get thrilled to hear about a girl’s head chopped off and blood splattering all over because of her lovely Rapunzel hair which got stuck in one of the themepark rides?

I feel blessed. Even though I do not have as many similar interests with them, we are still able to socialise after our secondary school education ended years ago.

Emokid Yuanhao

Well, I'm back at this blog again.. my previous blog hosted at Kamilul.com has been down recently since my aunt passed away. I signed up the plan under her credit card and it has since been terminated. I'll just continue blogging with this one again till I choose to move over there in months to come where it's more flexible for me.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

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I'm fine, I'm the Ashraf as you have always seen. Today's feature will be about Sir Yuanhao. He is my classmate in LOM since year 2. Semester 2.1 was quite empty for me.. I guess. Ever since Yi Liang got attached, the clique seperated and we rarely ever have an outing anymore as everyone is busy with their ever-tight schedule.

I don't really know Yuanhao well in semester 2.1. He was always with his own clique, i.e. with Donovan and Hafiz. We did talk for a few times but it not that enriching. I only know that he's an amazing amiable guy and I hope one day I will get to know him more.

I am not able to recall when we started talking more and more with to each other. I guess it most likely began when I wanted to leave my post as Secretary to the Interest Group. I remembered it was at LOM Centre 2 when Yuanhao sided with me when I was talking about quitting to Lee Lin.

I was feeling down at that period of time. The whole IG issue was in a mess. People were pissed off with me and I was pissed off with them. I was in a horrendous situation. I didn't know what to do. However, it was him who got me laughing again.

Yuanhao is an optimistic person. He cracks lame jokes. He makes a lame comment out of nothing. He manipulates the conversation and change the entire direction to being positive. His fucking hilarious self makes him even a more interesting person. He made a vr-zone, hardwarezone and eBay account with the name "Ashruf_LOM". He spelled it as ashrUf, not ashrAf. I don't know whether he really did now know to spell my name, but whatever it is, I can't even believe even a simple thing like that will make me laugh.. haha ^^

He lives nearby at Telok Kurau, where I'm at Ubi. Initially I always took bus 8 for my convenience. Though nowadays, I take 15.

As you know, Ashraf the Worried Soul always talks about results. "GPA dropping", "If I don't get A.. I'll kill myself!" and so on. He moderates my conversations by facilitating me to look at the other side of life. "It's only 10%", "You still have main exams", "At least it is better than me". A lot of things he said. His words are simple yet encouraging. Encouraging enough for me to put aside all my worries and look on the brighter side of life.

Slowly.. our conversation topics got quite diversed. We talked about other issues affecting us. Girls, families, even politics per say. And yes, there are times when I will talk about something shockingly boring to him. He'll listen patiently.

He's literally like an Angel from Heaven. (okay.. maybe not really!)

Though, with all the good stuff going, I get disappointed at times. I was most disappointed last week when I needed help in giving out flyers for the transport petition. He was not willing to help I guess. I felt quite sad.. wondering where my friends were when I needed their moral support. Thankful enough, I had Eden, Jonathan and the other Chinese girls to help out. Well it was not Yuanhao alone who didn't want to. Another close friend of mine also said no. Shirley. Hafiz said no. Melody said no, I suppose since there was no response. I don't even want to ask Yi Liang for I foresee a 'no' from him too.

Yeah.. not just disappointed with him alone, the others as well. I've learnt from this petition campaign that not many people are willing to help out for this cause due to the nature of the campaign itself. It requires a bit of thick-skinnedness. I believe that in the future, when I need help from my friends, they will be there for me.

On the contrary, Yuanhao is a scarry guy. He's too nice. Too nice is just scarry man! Who knows he's like a murderer or a sex maniac! Don't be too nice la, bro.

Being around him and his unique clique has enable me to change a bit of myself. I'm slightly more optimistic nowadays (I mean seriously). I can't really explain how I've changed, but I know I have. Hahaha.

On a final note, I wish Yuanhao all the best. Hope he gets a girlfriend soon XD

P.S. Whoops, that post above just sounded gay man! I guess it'a alright la. I just treat it as friend-friend kind-of-thing? No worries everyone, I love girls. Oh you bet I do! ; D

Archive

The day has come. This blog will be an archive.

All new entries will be at Kamilul.com

See you there! (:

Disappointment

In a few days time, the national petition will commence.

The group’s target is to get 100,000 signatures.

Is it possible? I believe that it is possible, but it will take time – though I feel that we can only get 50,000.

This will be a once in a lifetime experience, I don’t think this will ever happen again in my life. I also treat it somehow as my personal project. I want to see how far I can go for this cause.

I know it’s going to be tough. It will be very tough. Imagine, your own friends refuse to help you… I know some of them are busy and stuff, but you can’t even sacrifice some of your time? Just 20 minutes a day to collect some signatures is not that difficult, you know.

And I say this time and time again, I’m very disappointed to see that those I invested so much time helping is not willing to help me out this time round. I guess my investment gone bonkers with no returns, like those who invested in Lehman Brothers. Next time I shall critically evaluate whether I should invest my time in certain people.

I think next time I won’t say “I don’t expect anything in return”. Why am I always by myself… it’s very sickening… very. Why can’t people help me when I need the help? Am I suppose to live in this world alone, and just me alone by myself.

Do you know how lonely I feel? Do you know how sucky it is to be talking to yourself because everyone’s so busy handling their own problems? Some kind of loser I am. I may seem okay but there are a lot of things bothering me.

Ahh.

I won’t let these issues affect me; I must not let them affect my life. People say strength is from your mind “It’s all in the mind”. I beg to differ. I guess to me, strength is not from your fists, it’s not from your mind but… strength comes from your heart. If you believe in what you are doing, put your heart into it and it’ll be alright.

Be strong Ashraf. Though you feel so hurt now, you will be alright. I just feel sad for you Ashraf because you keep getting hurt. Your heart is not only broken into a million pieces, you’re also stepping on it. Crushing it, smacking it. Okay, whatever.

I just don’t feel like typing anymore.

Petition: High Bus Fares for Polytechnic students

Dear all,

Petition: High Bus Fares for Polytechnic students

There is a petition started by a Polytechnic student, asking the Bus Companies to revise the fares for Poly students. Currently the Poly students are paying much higher. This is because the Polytechnic is classified under Tertiary Education, but it is not for the Junior Colleges (JCs) and Institute of Technical Education (ITE).

As a Poly student myself, I feel that it is unfair that SBS Transit and SMRT are charging the Poly students almost double for the bus and train concessions when compared to those in the JCs and ITE.

If you feel that it is unfair and biased that the Bus Companies are charging us higher, please sign this petition: http://www.petitiononline.com/polybus/

Please spread the Online Petition URL to others studying in the Polytechnics as well, spread it to your individual Interest Groups (IGs), classmates, and so on.


Best regards


Kamilul Ashraf
Temasek Business School

60 Things Most Girls Don't Know About Guys

Found this on the net, found it quite interesting ; D

-- Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE)

--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. Yes, very true.. for me, that is. But for now, there's no one in mind uh. Eh wait, do I even flirt in the first place? ; P

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes. Er, it depends ah. I'm used to talking to girls on the phone, so it's not that bad.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. Very, very, very true! Even in movies, I think there was one I was watching with.. Rick&JH I think, it was Money No Enough 2. There was this nurse, her smile was like so awesome. And her scene was like only a few seconds, sad manz

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. Really meh? Sometimes I just don't want her to know.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are
method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily. Lalala..

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend. Happened to one of my guy friend ah.. someone ah.. Not really 'seek help' la, but he was like trying to get close to her through her best friend. And it turned out otherwise.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. Yes, we know what to do.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Hahaha, yes. Well you see, either I tease or I insult (rarely), and most girls (I don't know) can't see through. Teasing maybe yes, but not insult - I just want their attention. They just think I'm lame or have nothing better to say, or.. my mouth's just bitter (when I insult). Perhaps one day they'll miss me when I stop insulting.. aww.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot. Yep, yep.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. I think I think too much in general, whatever is it.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. I'm always faking my expressions anyway. I'm a fake.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Let me see, I've said that I'm crazy about a girl.. I think once ah. Uh huh.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." Woo.. depends la. Actually, that can be applied to me. I don't wish to trouble people with my stuff, so I'll just say "I'm okay" or "Nothing".

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you. Maybe, maybe not. More of maybe =x

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Yep, yep. I may seem okay, but I have a million problems ahead of me!

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er.. don't know. Hahaha. I haven't talked about girls (okay maybe a little) for quite some time, for now.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us. Yes, and if you think guys are assholes, don't you dare call me and blabber about how much you hate all the guys in the world because - I am a guy too

--We don't like girls who are too skinny. Yep, yep.

--We love it when girls talk about there boobs. Hehe, oh c'mon...

--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times. Eh.. think so. This happened to me like a few times alr.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. Don't know, don't have a girlfriend.

Cable TV

I will so love my life. My mum just subscribed to StarHub Cable TV.

Love Marriage, a drama that I've been following, is on KBS World at 3 am on this Wednesday (I have no school on every Wed). Plus, it has English subs too! : DD

On top of that, there's those news channels as well! BBC/Bloomberg/CNN.. yeah man, so gonna be updated with the news. Gonna catch live updates on the elections.

Then there's NatGeo and Discovery Channels, not forgetting Star World where I get to watch Heroes, and Hallmark Channel where I get to watch The Nanny.


Ahh.. more reasons to spend more quality time at home - with the TV XDD